five months

five months
five months, is it long?

put a finger over flame
five seconds would seem an eternity
put a heart on a blade and slide it down slowly
sit back and enjoy the agony

promises are just words
when they dont mean a thing
trust a hopeless sense
a worthless feeling

whats another word for
i dont wanna hear it from you?
tell me, but then again dont
what do you say, is actually really true?

fall for the fun
get up for the joy
stab again girl
my hearts a toy

it isnt hate
i dont think its sadness
but everything has to be poured out
before the water can settle

i hate it
that i hate this
and i hate everything that happened

but why do i wish otherwise
some nights i lie awake..

five months
its been too long..
too long

dont bother about this
im just feeling emo
2days of hard work
is finally taking its toll