just came back from the field playing some frizbee with my brother after i came back from the spending the whole day at the library studying chemistry, talking with marxha and kdir after he came back from his lunch in mel's house after i came back from mine in taman tun with josh, jade, alicia and yehern after the girls were asking the guys whether saggy boobs are bad after we left the library for lunch after we studied a bit in the library after i went to the orthodontist to get that $(*&^@#*&$^@#$ irritating wire outta my right cheek after i woke up today..

have i given u a headache yet? haha..

anywayz..

trials coming up ... N.s list is out.. and so is the timetable for spm.. woohooo.. bloody, my exams start earlier and end later then my classmates kuz of the bloody art papers.. joy. oh and afi, i said i wanted to try writing a short story cerpen thingy.. i didnt say it'll be good right? haha.. notice.. "try".. im not a good story writer i admit.. but u still went on reading all 3 chapters didnt you? hahaha.. its entertaining la. i find it to be.. lol

i went to the mamak with my brother the other night.. i dont really say anything about what im about to post but yeah.. this one was more than what i usually get. so here's what went on. he went in to pay the bill while i stood outside. i felt some bug fly into my hair or something so i flicked my hair to the right to get it out when i noticed a whole table of these college exchange students from china cockstaring me. nothing? nooo.. the whole bloody table of them were girls.. DO YOU KNOW HOW FRIGGIN NERVE WRECKING IT IS WHEN U GET EVEN A GIRL STARING AT YOU? TRY A WHOLE TABLE DAMNIT.. yeah, so i ran into the shop and ask my brother "wei, got anything on my face ar.. got ppl looking at me" nope.. nothing. to make things worse we had to walk pass that same table to get back home.. woo -_____-.. SO.. i have came to a conclusion that i have a sign on my chest that only certain people can read that says

LA LA MUI!!
LOOG AT MEEE!!

in addition to that my brother treats me like some exhibit.. dont get me wrong, i love my bro. he's great and all.. and im glad he's proud of me as his bro, and im proud of him none the less. but take for example, today, when he had just came back from his project meeting in centerpoint he had a bunch of his friends following him. to be exact, 1 boy 3 girls. he called me out to the field to play frizbee.. so yea, i went la.. brother ma.. so first thing i hear his girlfriends talk to him and all..
"eh eh mingyue, ur brother issit? really ar? ooooooooo.."

then who, his mother ah.. then they continue the whole time so happily watching us play frizbee.. how i know arh? these girls dam chun one.. when i look at them to check whthr they looking they just stare back and smile.. STARE..

i dont wanna be a paedophile.. padefile.. pa-doh-file..
I DONT LIKE YOUNGER GIRLS! Lol.. my spelling's like shit.. dont get me wrong.. im not THAT xP full of myself to post all this up.. i posted it now because it was really disturbing this time =S im serious..

life house - take me away

it seems that i always have something to do with a lifehouse song.. lol.. well not really but it sucks listening to it sometimes.. sometimes its sweet. ive found that when the band gets a gig.. its nvr the same performing already. sure it's fun. but ive felt what it's like performing a song for someone down in the crowd watching you..

the feeling's incomparable.. uncomparable.. u get what i mean

and.. i found a small note i put in my planner some time ago.. it's something i was planning out if i got to bring her to my place.. i planned a day-evening-nite at my place.. it goes something like this

put a dvd on
and pile the couch with pillows and a blanket to huddle up
order a pizza or sth
dim the lights down when it gets dark
put the cd in..
play lifehouse's Everything
Utada Hikaru's First love
Enrique's Hero
take her by the hand for a slowdance.. or whatever we can make outta it..lol.
tell her how much she means to me
and let the night slip away..

didnt really plan how she was gonna get home tho.. but im sure i could have found a way. do i pass as a guy trying to plan an evening? haha.. quite weird for minghan to do something like this rite.. deal with it. haha.. but sadly it didnt come to pass.. so yeah.. bbye paper..

and now, before i go get dinner before i study my addmath..lol.. im gonna say something that i think is gonna make every single one of youz whack my bloody head first thing monday

screw me for dillying on the past. if like it, i do it.

i miss her

kdir, june.. u still love me rite? lol
P E A C E P E O P L E

oh cool i didnt kena ns =D
gua pigi baca buku dulu.. babai

aight ppl.. chapter 3's up... gtg.. going out.. haha.. ciaoz

shit wei i tell you...

spm trials = 17 August...

shit shit shit

anyways.. today was kinda fun.. came back home took the mp3, found that my bro's earphone's were a bit screwy so i took my humungo bungo ones from my com.. yea what the crap. let people look at mad man with large headphones.. and yea people stare. so what? i love my music so deal with it.. haha.. anyways. i get my food in the coffee shop in centerpoint sit down and enjoy my meal, lost in the music it feels like im in my own world.. bliss. haha..then suddenly i look up and i see this girl sitting 2 tables away..
college, probably 21-25.. tan.. gorgeous hair, nice threads.. cute.. duh.. haha.. she's looking my way.. so yea.. look down again.. look back up, caught her, she looked away..

we got ourselves a game going on here.. heheh

so yea. i think to myself.. dam its been long since ive been in the mood, or even had the dam mood for that matter.. i gave it up for nothing. and i think, do i still have it? i dont think so.. maybe. lemme try. so there i went..
looked back up.. she looks at her two guy friends b4 she turns back.. i grin a bit n give a nod.. she smiles and waves with her fingers..

score...

ANYWAYS...

chapter3's in progress. hardly anytime to get on the com at all.. i think by the end of this month i'll be done with chapter 3 -_____- dun even talk abt my recording already.. dam it la.. k gtg.. this sucks.. i want spm to be over and done with.. i wanna get back to the gym, the studio, the fun.. oh.. but school's kinda fun now. haha.. aight screw it, im off..

peace

its been long
since ive wrote like this
since the last time
i felt like coming back here

here's where it starts
where all the good times have been
no amount pain is greater than
remembering joy in times of grief

since i last really smiled
since the last time i saw the light of the sun
now there isnt light
no stars in the sky
none..

im not complaining
not a bit
im just regreting
saying things ive said or havent
doing things i have or not done

so its time again
to get back up
fight again
for what i think has worth

yeah the world might be against me
even the goal i run for
but if u never try
u'll never know what ur worth
u'll never know what the sting feels like
or how it feels when tears stream down ur face
in sadness
or in joy

whats this worth
nothing
ive already lost all
going into this
with nothing to lose
and the world to gain

cuz its already night
let the holes mend
save me the last dance
and ur hand
till it all hangs up
and till it all ends

let me dance with you
till the stars grow dim
till the wind kisses our face
trails across skin

i still hold your hand
when i fall asleep
and feel warmth
that isnt there
tell me im weak
tell me im losing it
i am

this is a poem
this is abstract
its meaning depends on its admirer
on all of you reading this

let it apply
to what you people are
what ur going thru
let part of me
be part of you

im back
=)

when i see something beautiful i think of you

snow patrol - you're all i have


good song... seriously. go get it.
anyways, FINALLY got my art done.. finally got my modem back.. finally got my brother and sis in the room to watch some tv.. finally got the comp to myself.. finally..

i hardly get to do anything nowadays. got my hands full with school work. college stuff.. bla bla bla the list goes on.. got my practical exams for piano coming up next month.. and my exams too.. sheesh.. and whats wrong with some people?? cant see the busy sign on my msn issit?? too small ah.. -____- sheesh..

anyways.. its been good the last couple of days.. kdir's been back for quite a while.. caught up alot with the guy. he's getting better which is good kuz it kinda sucks seeing ur friend from back when u were 6 in depression.. u know what im saying? yeah..

my band's itching for a gig.. bloody. we havent played since.. sri aman.. we're gonna go mad in a bit i tell you.. plus, when we DID find one.. we had to PAY to actually play for people. wow.. your big fat backside la we pay.. anyways, there's some malam bakat coming up in bu4 and i got a friend asking around for us to play so yea.. haha.. i hope that comes out good..

dam, its been dam long since ive done anything online.. my inbox is flooded.. i havent updated this blog or my other one. my friendster profile hasnt been logged into for ages.. aihz.. chapter 3 isnt even written yet.. i think i gota put that on hold for just a while more.. gonna finish up the song already and trying to put it in the demo cd.. and hopefully someone out there's gonna like hearing it =) haha.. and yeah.. from then on out.. its all gonna be unpredictable..

goo goo dolls - stay with you

another good one.. go get it.. haha.. nowadays its like.. all i can think about is music.. or writing something out.. or just listening to something nice.. or recording something.. i got 3 songs already going on and i got more and more coming each time i play a note.. inspiration is kinda spilling over the edges of my heart now. haha.. why?

maybe i miss her..
maybe i do..
i went thru my phone when i was cleaning it up
saw her smiles in the pictures she sent
went thru everything all over again
found myself smiling..
yeah
maybe i miss her..

nah.. maybe just emo only la..

k.. gotta go sort more stuff out.. oh cool. check this =)

aight so the nights here
and a week's just passed
dam the days move so slow
when u need them to go fast

a week ago
i'd never think
that something like this would happen
its more than a dream

i bear true witness
to what some people say
that angels do exist on earth
i see one everyday

she guards and loves
and smiles and laughs
and every little thing she does
is everything more than i can ever ask

so i believe it now
that fairytales are real
im gonna be one of the people writing them soon
kuz i know how they feel =)

one week and counting
one lifetime to wait
one new ray in the morning
one new blessing too great


im urs and ur mine =)

i think its just me when it just feels good reading this again.. haha.. ima emo person.. so sue me

peace