a thing people cant live without these days

hey peeps.. and haha, the last post sparked of some talk again hasnt it? lol.. just so you pat-kongs, pat-pohs ( is that how u spell it? i havent the slightest idea ) or some of u plain curios what-the-whack-is-he-writing people know, i dont need any reason to post up SONG lyrics do i? haha.. it's A Year From Now by Across Five Aprils. A rather interesting and deep song that my dear June introduced to me.

Posted the lyrics up kuz i didnt have any time to post anything else and i thought the song was worthy of public affection kuz it's not shallow like songs on the radio these days that talk about.. wad? dancing with lions, newspapermen, getting to know supermodels.. etc.. etc.. so yea, it's not that im friggin emo or into someone, heck im friggin glad im outta it. the song's nice and it's a rather good change from what we hear nowadays. does that please ur ears my dear friends? dun worry abt me.. i'm fine =)

the random stuff i get from people in my mail..

and on the side note, i find it totally amusing what some freaking mentally retarded people might be doing or thinking while reading this blog of mine. some people are so full of themselves arent they? kasihan ma, dont grow up of course lo. if it's so unpleasent, i dont remember asking any of you to read it. screw off please.. ur more than welcome to =) sigh, sad sad people.. internet i.p. adresses are so easy to track these days wudnt u people agree? har har.. and a big thanks to u ppl who've informed me abt all this.

so..
besides the fact that our school's throwing papers after countless papers of exams at us, life's pretty much fine.. had a blast at june's bday the other night. i'll get a few pics up of it soon enough

other than that, ive been playing around in 1U..
man, it's like someone let loose a herd.. no. a freaking stampede of girls into the shopping malls last week's holidays. and it's not only 1U getting it. no, i'm not complaining. just very pleasantly surprised, haha. sure it's great that girls are everywhere.. sweet eyecandy no?

funny thing was.. where are the all guys? seriously.. it's not that i was looking for them, it was just too obvious there were hardly any around. man, so im guessing it IS true that the population of guys in the world is declining.. whats the current ratio again? 4 girls to one guy?

dont you people love my abu-bobo photoshoping skills?

scary? or just plain sweet? all i can say is more for the rest of us then.. haha

remember this little thing?

besides that.. ive gotten to know much more pleasant girls and it's good. haha.. centerpoint is PACKED with people nowadays at night. with a mamak, starbucks, McD's, a bar, a friggin good pizza shop and all kindsa weird food, packed would be a good way to describe the nightlife ther. walk around to get a carton of milk and ur bound to bump into at least one complete stranger. so happens that many of them are rather sweet. haha

thats her =)

and yea, her name's picky.. hands down. undeniably it's a very out of the ordinary name but after a while it gets catchy.. haha. anyways, she's been nothing but an angel la.. a rather perculiar one but nvrtheless sweet. haha. the other nite i was up studying for history and my hp beeps with her msg at 1am. haha.. its kinda hard to find people u barely know that are willing to teman u into the early morning with perky msgs isnt it? haha.. thanks picky. dont u horny bugga's go sucking up to her now.

anyways, sleep calls.. my eyes are way past dying.. and i got beautiful physics later and probably the merdeka bash at the curve later tonite.. woohoo! celebrate merdeka? haha.. puh leez.. xD

peace people

a tragedy in progress

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In five weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember. cause that's all you can do.

We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.

I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were.
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.

So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.

Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
remember. cause that's all you do

beautiful isnt it? it's a double helix. yeah.. didn't know that til a few seconds ago..

haha hey people.. i've finally linked my cam and mic together so im busy having some "fun" recording some vid's that i will soon post up here to poison ur eyes and ears.. till then, take care.. haha..

getting up this early on a holiday is a sin.. but worth it

so.. it's 9.40am now. im soo proud of myself for getting up before my alarm! har har.. applaud applaud.. haha. now i'm waiting for josh to get up so we can get going and looking at the way things are going, it's gonna take a while. so here i am with nothing else to do..

anywaays.. i got to know that girl on friendster. Surprisingly, her name's Picky.. yeah, u heard it right. Picky. I didn't know what to tell her when she asked what did i think about her name. Unique? Funny? Weird? Cute? I don't know. Im still juggling with the answer cuz ive played some online game before and that name just so happens to belong to a creature that looks like a little chick. Yeap..

this.. is a Picky

besides the name, the girls nice. not regarding the further shock i got browsing thru her photo's in friendster, she has a fascinating personality. yeap, fascinating. and i've told her so myself. So yea, she resembles someone.. but then again.. maybe not. dunnno lah..

i dont think it's right to judge anyone without knowing them. heck, it never is.

okay. band calls.. later

peace

re : blog post Sunday, August 20, 2006

*ahem*

it has come to my attention that many of u blog reader's have mistaken, read wrongly, misinterpreted, misunderstood one of my posts recently regarding this person that i found viewing my friendster profile that highly resembles another person that has been a major part of my life... to a degree that see's it as highly disturbing, offending, dissing and to the likes of which..

one reader, has so generously took the time to explain how such comments can effect a girl and feed back from the other side. thank you may yi =) and to which i want to apologiez to the person(s) involved has taken it wrongly.. i'm sorry if some people have taken it wrongly.

*ahem*
i have gone to the extent of using big big powderful england words in attempt to make myself..
more.. jelas.. bagai.. bagai.. er.. ok screw peribahasa and powder powder words..

anyways, let me restate the post in point forms to ease all you people's understanding...

- one bright sunny afternoon i on my com-pu-tuh
- i go my friendster account
- i scroll down my page and to my surprise i is see picture of girl
- picture of girl reminds me of her
- picture of girl reminds me of her because the girl resembles her n her sis a bit... ( this means i think the girl looks like them a bit la ok? -___ - can understand or not? )
- stomache starts feeling weird but starts blogging about it anyways
- lack of concentration and distortion of thought leads to me not having right words to describe my feelings

...and now what all this is about...
what i meant by "feeling weird" and that "feeling when u see a girl in the mall but she turns around and happens to be a guy" was

- that feeling you get when u think it's one thing when it's another

i mean duh.. i saw that girl viewing my friendster. i thought she was someone when she turned out to be somone else.. and since that person who i thought she was, has a rather undeniable major effect on me, my mind when kaput. i couldnt find the right words to explaing how i felt so i put that down. and yeah.. bad move

it was not in my intention to provoke or diss her or her sis. how they look like or anything at all.. why should i?

her sis has been nothing but nice to me.. considering the fact that we've not actually spent any significant time talking or anything, but she's done nothing bad, per say, to me.. so..why on God's Good Green Earth should i say anything about her?

her? i cant say it's been all nice and sweet between us but i get no good out of dissing her or anything of the kind. and me? i dont diss anyone either.. unless they happen to be teacher's in my school or someone the majority of people already hate. most of you people who know me should already know that. so yeah, if i actually did really wanna say anything that serious to anyone.. i'd give it straight to their face and not cowardice it out here.. i guarantee you that. and the pic i mentioned abt posting up was that girl.. not her or her sis..

she and her sis? well, if you'd stop me on the street and ask what's my opinion about them. they're gorgeous, cute.. however u may describe them or say it.. they look and are undeniably pretty. i admit that

i did not mean that they look like some homo guy in girls clothes ok? period.

so that's it. i'm sorry if i've offended anyone.

and now i'll get back to memorizing lyrics and tabs.. band prac first thing tmr morning.. oh wait. its morning. um. band prac in a few hours..

peace people

kay it's "she reminds me of".. not "looks like"

haha.. thankyou jean... i know my england's very powderful

self entertainment? pfft.. bite me

aight.. so it's already wednesday and ive been desperately trying to actually DO something useful this week besides sleeping.. and sleeping.. and sleeping

and ive so delightfully found out that whenever i leave my account on my computer on, SOMEONE.. happily uses MY friendster profile to look at my friends and all kindsa people.. at least that explains why some people with names "lolipop" etc.. are looking at my profile and adding me.. woohoo..

anyways yea, to those who've asked about my latest posts and stuff. yea i dont regret nuts.. i dont regret saying what i have and wishing i hadnt later.. i dont regret being what i have been and all of u know how it was like. i dont.. i wished i hadnt done some of the things i have... but i dont regret anything.

would i do it all over again the way i did? probably.. probably not..

and yes my er, 'poems' are long la.. i dont have no format to follow rite. haha.. it just goes on n on la sometimes.. like the way u girls can gossip for the whole day when no teachers come into class because of the kursus. haha. dont like change url la.. easy.. but thx to those who've put in a good word for them.. =) haha.. i appreciate it

and no, i repeat.. N O.. it dont make me feel horny, THANKYOU. just weird.. not the bad weird.. but not the good weird either.. just.. er.. whats the word? surprised? shocked? stunned? it's like someone caught u with ur guard down kinda thing. maybe i was a little lost for words the other day but yea.. i mean, i think she n her sis are cute and all la xP.. thats what i think. i know some of u dont share the same taste as i do. so. screw u la dongheads xD haha.. n this new girl is.. er.. well, she looks like them so.. yeah. u guyz know me not to diss anyone abt how they look like.. [unlessimarounddarren XD wahaha].. but yea.. i was shocked la.. ask june how she felt when i showed her how Lolipop looks so much like sombody in our form and she'll explain to you the meaning of shocked im looking for haha..

anyways yah.. seeing that all u kiasu people are telling me how im lying about how much ive studied, i think i'd better go and actually study.. it is kinda-quite-a bit more-slowly but surely-finally hitting me that it's the trials. undeniably, my folks are always giving me the " you know ming, u have to study kuz of this that this that " talk.. yea duh i mean it's a bore and all but hey, they're my parents and eventhough many of us s.m.d.u. people think that parents are a pain and they dont know what good for us so they "force" us to slave over books.. nah, it's just us complaining la.. i know i gotta study eventho i make so much noise about it. we're students ma.. what else can we do? haha..

anyways, yea gtg. i think i got carried away doing my workout routine yday listening to some jap song i found on my old cd's = song was good = adrenaline pumped more = my arms and sides hurt now.. good stuff tho the song. haha.. yeah.. ouch.


peace..

by request of jian hao.. heck knows for what

happy jian? haha..
anyways, it's close to one right now. ive just finished typing out a testimony certificate thingy for my school to certify for me.. and yeah. it's monday. the start of the holiday's already.

listening to : I Still.. - backstreet boys
state of mind : still recovering from a caffeine overdose...

i WAS chatting to jian, who made me post that BOH thingy for what reason i cant rmbr already.. spending the whole time trying to find a way to add mp3 to my blog. he dont know.. neither do i.. anyone? lol.. if any of u do, please write the site or sth in my chatbox or the trashings sections yea? thanks..
chatting to hueyi now.. she's always someone i can talk to. just that recently, i have so much to say, so few words to describe.. what i can do is try.

try to let it out through these words here.. or another song adding to the few that ive already written out. amazing how one incident, one person can give you so much inspiration for such a long time huh? it's not supposed to be this long.. it's not right

and jian's just told me he's linked my blog with the title The Horny Bugga.. woot.. that's what friends are for. when ur having a prob on ur mind.. they burst thru ur window and kick the living daylight's of it outta ur head.. haha.. aight just changed it

anyways, i think thats it for today. havent been sleeping well.. the exams arent making it any better. im spending my nights studying in my room just to find myself going thru memories of what happened the exams before this. when there was always a phonecall to look forward to after those few chapters..

i miss that voice? i dont know.. havent heard it for a few months. havent seen her blog.. or viewed her profile since way back.. i have no idea whats going on her side..
im guessing she's hating me.. she's probably having onto some other guy already. despite everything she's said.. doesn't matter la. i just hope she's happy n all.. bla bla bla.. yea i know, ming shaddup

aights peeps nite.. i guess i'll leave u people with a question..

what is the meaning of your life? what do you live for when u get up everyday in the morning? is it worth it?

gnite.. peace

what is this? it's how im feeling right now
i have no idea

oh-my-freaking-cow...
wow...

aight..
i just logged on to my friendster to check something.. and i see this..
girl..
who's viewed my profile..

..

she looks like her..
u have no idea..
man...
and to make it even better..
it looks like her sis as well..
both of them.. man..
i think im gonna throw up..
no im not sick.. or digusted or whatever
im feeling.. really...
weird..
no not horny dang it..
weird..

sure, she's a lil diff..
not that much eyeliner..
but..
..
let's see..
u know the feeling u get
when you're walking in a shopping mall
then you see ahead of you a chic with long hair, curves and all
then she turns back..
and it's a he?

yeah.. almost something like that..
i think im gna kick myself now..


is it legal to post up a pic of her here? lol

turn the night into day
and moon into a sun
load the barrel and aim the trigger
hold ur hand steady and cock the gun

some nights i still lie awake
till the times that we used to talk until
late into the night
it'd be just me and you

those nights i stare at my phone
in front of my face
all ur messages and photos
long gone and erased
but im dying to get out of the memories in my head
they haunt and they stab
and im being chased
by the times we had way back when
i wiped ur tears
and held ur hand

when i promised i'd be always there
for everything she needs
chase her ghosts away
for her i'd bleed

i risked going back into battle
with these unhealed wounds
to which she promised would help heal
and soothe
a promise long forgotten
and shoved way back
and to me is the blame
because we forgot that

but today, right now
on all these nights
i hated the arguments
and all the fights
no im not regretting
whatever ive said
it just keeps playing in loops

repeating in my head

im figuring she's happy
and she's doing okay
despite her occasional bitchings
and how her teacher has been a pain today

so.. im over this
i think i am
kuz im thinking that this
has gone way outside its original plan


tell me people
what does it mean to really love someone
i say that even in this fickle world
it really can be done

the light at the end of the tunnel..

i justt came back home from a freakin 1 hour plus session at the orthodontist to fix up my teeth. lol.. yes i want the whole world to know. haha.. im really proud to say i got a beautiful shiny white set of teeth. bahaha.. see, this is what exams do to urs truly

anyways, i got a 3 hour art class later to prepare up for my trial's question so let's cut straight to.. er.. whatever i got to blog today.

its been 6 days into the exams.. not counting weekend.. 8 papers down, and i think 35 more to go. oh sweet glorious days of our youth. we shall forever remember how much we loved slaving deep into the morning's, watching the stars shine as we stuff chemistry and physics into our skulls.. sigh, beautiful isnt it?

lately, since nothing much has been going on, ive been thinking about my blog... well, it's what i think about when i get online la. lol.. in the past, my blog's have been more on just writing haiku or expressions of what i feel. nowadays, its more of a.. toilet break from life. Many blogs nowadays are pretty much like that, wouldnt you agree? In fact, it's what blogs are. Get through a day, and u splat it out here. Everything that's bugging you, that new girl in skool, or that shirt u wanna get... yeap, our at least once in a while stop to let business out. But the best part of this toilet is.. some people actualyy LIKE your shit. No one's asking you to flush it away. haha.. even if they wanted you to, hey, what can they do? haha.. anyways..

hype about the Sekolah Harapan Negara in my school has definately died down.. nowadays they dun even care if u walk in during the morning prayers in perhimpunan.. or turn up late for monday assembly without a tie.. u just walk into ur line and go on with whatever.. another few more examples would be..

the whole bunch of us nutcases are taking our class photo's for our school magazine of the ledge of the 1st floor..

my hair's past what is supposedly regarded as "long" in my school and no one's saying anything about it.. im not complaining tho.. haha..

and last but not least.. you do this off the jambatan bewteen Blok B and C without getting gantung sekolah..

isnt my school great? i love my school.. haha..

peace people..gtg..

so if u havent noticed, i switched back to the old skin.. why? its my blog... cannot ar? haha.. no la.. i kinda got fed up straining my eyes trying to see a preview of my posts.. and hey i'd rather have a blog which at least 50% of the web page ur viewing actually CONSISTS of the blog.. so until i find another suitable one.. im sticking with this. nice n simple.. =)

thats all. haha

its half an hour pass 1 now.. just came up from doing some chen. khidir was here earlier. brought his Click dvd and watched it, quite an interesting show that one. haha.. i'd recommend it to anyone who's willing to waste 3hours of their studying time to de-strees themselves.. yes indeed.

i wanna universal remote.. haha. imagine that

anyways.. my parents have been away for the weekend visiting a family friend down in singapore. that leaves my bro n i to the whole house. belive me its boring. BORING. especially when there's no transport around. so in a way... i need my parents around.. or at least till i get my license. hahaha.. man.. i hate exams..

todayy.. woke up arond 7. did two loads of wash kuz my brother complains when he has to do houswork.. then hueyi picked me up for chem tuition. haha.. yea i know guys got ego and stuff la.. we should be picking the girls up rite? haha.. but hey, moments like these arent gonna last forever so im savouring them while i can =) it was good , getting driven around by her. its something that's gonna be nostalgic next time, u know? haha.. yeah

night before that kdir decided to join my bro n i for dinner. yeah, he's back alright. haha. just like old times.. anyways, it was the day we finally got to go to starbucks for a study session and guess what? the minute we get there, there's this digi acoustic gig thingy with this "cool" people listening to a bunch of supposedly "professional" performers playing some realllyyyy "cool" songs they wrote..

honestly, they sounded like pure S - H - I - T...

seriously, who the hell writes songs about Bagan Lalang or sings about a friggin cigarette bud???? sure it must be some other type of genre of music i obviously dont know about but.. what the heck?? if anything freaking sounds bad, THEN IT FRIGGIN SOUNDS BAD!! PERIOD.. and you have this rather small crowd in Starbucks listening to these people and grooving like its the deepest thing theyve heard?? Oh, come on..

Khidir : God, seriously what have i done to you? Is it fate that i'm never going to study in starbucks???
Ming : Yea man, of all days, we so nicely come here like this.. i dont mind listening to gigs but this is.. man..
Khidir : Yeah.. Ming i tell you, if one day you go and do that, and sing THIS loud also.. I'll personally walk up to you take your guitar and slap you.

Get it yet? If khidir's aggitated it's probably something quite annoying. Due to the fact khid's rather tolerant of things like these.



anyways, thats that.now its two.. im tired.. tmr's a long day and i got tons left to study. so til next time..


peace people

haha-hey people

i got myself a nice new blog skin.. finally found a nice dark looking one.. i havta admit tho, this one IS definately a bit creepy stalker-y-ish.. haha.. but what the heck. try searching thru blogskins.com and after a while anything will do..

anyways.. thats all for now.. ive spent more than enough of my day on editing my new blogskin thing.. hungry.

peace

hey sup peeps?

exams start this friday for me and i justt managed to get on to my dashboard to post a lil sth up. i just sat for a Grade7 yday afternoon and im happy to say, ther is a 75% chance i gave the examiner ear cancer. haha.. whats with mother's these days and sending their little girls for violin classes? there were tons of them running around with violins in their hands to my surprise.. half of them at least, have hands that i do not think are able to grip a violin properly.. im serious. but on the other hand i think its cool that some people take the initiative to start their kids young on such an instrument..

anyways, thats about all the time i have to write anything else (yea believe it) and there's so friggin much going on.. oh yea, alot.. yday was one heck of a day.. oh yea.. lol

peace people..

to those sitting for the trials soon i wish u people all the best..

God bless

i was going thru my old blog in friendster where my mom so happily stumbled upon -_______- and i came across something old i wrote so i gues i'll post it here kuz..

i dun have the time to write sth new
and i think its cool how sometimes somethings that are written stand thru time. n i think.. these are the things that are really from the heart.. well, thats what i think. haha.. enjoy people

no one wud have thought
that light and dark wud agree
that night would give day a smile
no one including me

no one wud have thought
a labyrinth wud be a gift
addmath wud be a blessing
compared to this

kuz..
nowadays i wonder..
if anything's sure in life..
would the clouds stay in the skies..
would the sun venture into the night

im wondering..
why distance really does make the heart grow fond
and why difference makes everything the same
why confusion may yet bring sanity sometimes
why we're all playing this game

im wondering..
what do u call this words im writing
haiku.. poems.. blog posts or rhymes..
call them what u wish..
just read between their lines..

to one..
who has a vicelike grip on a soul
who makes a person wonder
why a person could be so glad, so willing
to be treated so cold..

who makes a person wonder..
what do u take him as..
another chess piece to practice on in life
another page u flip over in ur book
or a sentence dying to be rewritten?

to another..
who has never thought the moon wud rise in the morning
and fallen leaves float back into thier home
i think time would tell the answers when it wants to
then we will have everything we need known..

so much to say yet
so few words able to describe
what wants to pour out
empty inside..

to them.. who have a distinct impression on my life..
these lines are usually for you..
its you who shape me and build me
tear me.. make me do what i do

to one.. u know i miss you

aight, so the exams start next week for me.
tons going on
hardly anytime to do anything else
blogging is almost a zero for now..
got an audition coming up
a few more millions of pages to read before friday next week
a few pages of lyrics to memorize
a few more songs to go thru
studio to book
man. i cant wait till spm is over.
there's a cute girl at my kickboxing class
haha..

peace people. study hard